Shit real. 

The things I want for myself I want for others: happiness, successes, self-fulfillment, love all around, a genuine lust for life. 

I don’t care how you choose to acquire those qualities, as long as it sits right with you. Inner peace is priceless. There are many ways to get what you desire you don’t have to go the convential route, what works for others doesn’t always work for you and vice versa. 

You can use the outlines of those whom you admire their hustle and lifestyle, but the reason you admire it is because they love what they do. It’s right for them. So the happiness is a beam of joy that attracts admirers. You too want that joy, but you have to determine which lifestyle, which route is perfect for you, and that doesn’t exclude lifestyles and routes that seem taboo, you can’t limit yourself. 

I do not have my life together, but dammit I’m working on it. I’m content with who I am and am growing to be. I know what I want. I’m progressing and I got a lot of work to do. But I don’t feel right withholding information from people that I feel can progress them in some way. So I don’t. Even as I get my shit together I can pass on whatever I can. I don’t get into much detail, cause it’s really irrelevant, but the outline is enough for you to go searching for more within yourself. I don’t want to wait until after I get where I’m going, to be of any help. I want people to know, we’re on the same road. I don’t give a fuck what path on you’re on, this road of life is broad as shit and we’re all going somewhere. We’re all gonna hit road blocks, traffic and stop signs but we gotta keep going. 

It’s hard. We all tend to feel alone bc honestly, only we know how we truly feel deeply.. Even if there’s someone you tell EVERYTHING to, there’s things you feel you can’t word just yet.. So they don’t know. In those feelings you are truly alone with yourself. Life can become overwhelming but that shouldn’t get you down to the point where you give up. 

The overwhelming feeling is like having an orgasm, a full body mental, spiritual, physical orgasm. 

Think about it. You’re only sca(red) of the overwhelming feeling because you can’t control it and you don’t know where this feeling is going. 

You’re having a breakthrough. Ride it out. It’s for the clarity you so deeply desire. It’s amazing what happens when you listen to yourself, as a matter of fact. Reflect. Think of every time you were severely overwhelmed. Don’t think of what caused it, but the aftermath.. The explosion and the view once the dust settled. Did you move differently after? Did you find an answer or two? Were you paying attention? 

Are you paying attention now? 

Shit real. 

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Try. 

I’ve been working hard on eliminating the word try from my vocabulary I’m becoming more and more mindful of what I speak.. To try means to make an attempt. Yes we can try, we can give a bit of effort and say we tried. Fuck it right? We tried is enough to settle the curiosity of pursuing something or someone new.. Or so we think. 

Yet trying at minimal effort isn’t really attempting at all, to me.. idk what you want to call it. I think everyone should try new things and people every now and then, but try with everything you have.. Only then does it become an action. You didn’t try, you did. You went through it with your full effort, that’s the difference between trying and doing. 

I think of all the times I “tried” to do things, and most times I was bullshitting. Either I wasn’t fully confident in what I was “trying”, I didn’t really want to do it or I wasn’t giving it my all. 

You have to be completely honest with yourself. 

Even now, as honest as I am with myself I still bullshit here and there. I have to check myself and remind myself of why it’s important to not try and to just do. To fully go into everything and everyone giving it your all. 

I’m not sca(red) of pain anymore (that was a factor at one point). It’s inevitable, and a sign you’re pushing through, life is up and down. Not doing new things or further expanding what you already do will make you stagnant. You can’t be stagnant in a world that spins, you’ll become lost and stuck. 

I put extra emphasis on some things more often than others but that’s just the severity of it, to me. I don’t feel the real important matters are often discussed, when they are it’s rare and brief. Maybe I need to surround myself around different people, well people in general but it’s getting warmer I soon come out to play… That’s neither here nor there. 

Using the word try is an excuse in the making, sure we don’t realize it at first, but think of all you said you would try, and how many of those tries did you actually put your all into it? Look at that ratio and think, might’ve the outcome been different had you given your all in all your “tries” ? 

Just something to think about. 

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Good morning. 

Wake up, wordpress, word press. (Lol)

It’s a graduation type of morning, Kanye West at his peak. 

I’m up and wi(red). I feel so many things. As time continues to progress along with my personal growth I realize how grateful I am…. All my questions get answe(red), everything I want to know comes to me in due time. 

I feel like I’m in a particular zone, isolated but I never felt more connected to reality. I can see very clear the transition from thought to thing..

— And I wonder, if you know what it means, to find your dreams come true? 

…. I’ve been waiting on this my whole life. These dreams be waking me up at night.. 

All that I’ve been doing is now proving to be the right thing. I feel I sound crazy sometimes, so these days I’m not speaking much. The crazier I feel I sound, the more certain I become within myself. I just don’t feel like exerting energy on convincing or explaining something that I can’t quite word, but feel so deeply passionate about. 

You ever wonder what it all really means? 

Every minute of the day I wonder, and I get the same answer every time: you’re gonna find out. 

Overall I’m in a good space, I feel so confident and excited for what’s to come, everyday I work on my passion and bettering myself in some way shape, or form. Training doesn’t stop, life exercises you every chance it gets.. Gotta be fit. Get it right, get it tight. 

You get back what you put out, what have you been putting out lately? 

Shit real. And I’m just rambling. 

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