God Bless America.

What a fucked up world we live in..

I’m disgusted with this country and us as people… The events of last night regarding Mike Brown Vs Darren Wilson in ferguson were not surprising but not any less upsetting. Last night, yet another hawk spit in the face of our people. To sit there and attempt to justify why murdering an unarmed man is okay while hiding a smirk on your face is just disgusting on so many levels .. I’m sick of this country and their bullshit ways .. it’s just a fucking shame…

I’m ashamed to say I’m an American.

My mom would say, there’s no such thing as hell… We’re living in it. And boy is she right.

This is hell. This is a country where principles are built off lies and illusion.. We live in a fucking bubble.
By no means necessary am I racist, but let’s call a spade a spade… This system was built to benefit those of the white roots.

What kills me is how far we were led to believe we’ve come in equality just to be bitch slapped back to reality…. On numerous occasions, even our own fucking president is mocked and ridiculed in subtle (sometimes obvious) ways to remind us… We are not conside(red) equal. Our rights as minorities mean nothing against the rights of the “majority” in law.

What I don’t understand, and please if anybody can clarify this for me.. Do so. I’ll be more than grateful cause this has been fucking with my mind for the longest…

You have a kid, lets call him white, who was raised in the “ideal manner” both parents, good education, financially comfortable… More than likely very well aware of the morality code of right and wrong.

You have another kid lets call him black, who was raised in poverty and the “ideal dysfunctional manner” one or no parent around.. Hardly elementary education .. Very distorted on what’s right or wrong ..

Why is that white can shoot up a school because he was ridiculed.. Assault officers, but still be taken into custody, alive … Only to head to trial to be seen as mentally disturbed? How is he mentally disturbed? Does he not know right from wrong? Was he not “raised properly” shouldn’t he know better? Why would we give the fully aware, the conscious, the easy way out? Doesn’t that make him the real monster? Despite knowing right from wrong, you chose to do wrong? To label him mentally disturbed means that he’s not conscious of being responsible for his actions? Who raises their child without self accountability?? Especially in “privileged” households.. Why wouldn’t he be punished to the full extent of the law? I feel too much leniency is put on cases similar to white bc no one wants to admit they fucked up as parents, and they must protect their own…

The numbers are rising… Rapidly. Soon enough the majority will become the minority… I feel that’s what they fear most.

You have black who was raised in poverty and only knows how to do wrong to try to make shit right, the intent is never evil.. More of a means for survival .. Black doesn’t know any better.. Right and wrong isn’t taught in poverty, that’s something that’s picked up usually way later on in life depending on circumstances.. So black could get into altercation where his life is being threatened and he won’t make it to trial because a cop would’ve killed him before he even had a chance to share his view of what happened… And in these circumstances, where the lines are blur(red) between what’s morally right or wrong and an unwritten set of street codes fill its place.. Isn’t black mentally disturbed? Shouldn’t we be more lenient towards the ignorant? If you don’t know better, how can you do better? Why not work on bettering black instead of throwing the fucking book at a kid who doesn’t know how to read between the lines of what’s conside(red) right or wrong?

By no means am I trying to justify crime in poverty, of course there’s a lot of work to be done in our communities.. But how can we build our communities up when we’re fighting a bigger battle? The battle that won’t allow us to build up our communities.. I don’t feel the justice system is fair to both sides of the social fence, it’s only more about race because most of the whites, are on the other side of the fence… The fence with benefits and a plethora of benefit of doubts are flowing through..

It’s upsetting for me cause the playing field is not leveled at all.. And there’s this anger within all of us who feel so strongly about this. It is justified, how we release it may not be, but I rather it be released now than to continue repressing it. Repression has never done anyone good.. The fact that we can see clearly that the jig is up and has been up for a while doesn’t stop the outsiders from trying to make us believe that shit is okay.. This is the way things should be. Get the fuck outta here. Insulting our intelligence every chance they get.

What does equality mean when your skin tone, is conside(red) a threat?

What is justice when those who are supposed to protect us, fear us?

Where is the voice for our people??

Now I know celebrities don’t have much power as far as government is concerned, but they have a voice.. They can do endorsements for big bucks but can’t speak up on inequality to bring awareness.. It’s disappointing. the ice bucket challenge had all celebrities freezing for a disease they can’t pronounce (no disrespect to those with that condition) but when it comes to their own people dying real deaths and social wars, they’re silent. Not a peep out of them. And it’s like, is the game that deep that you must bite your tongue to keep your cushy lifestyle? You don’t wanna upset your puppet master? It’s just frustrating to me bc I know we can overthrow this whole fucked up structure.

Maybe I’m naive, but I truly believe as people we can unite, in a militant manner and get shit done…
But the fear is too real, too many are sca(red) of what might happen shall we rebel intellectually and strategically … I’m afraid of what will happen if we don’t.

I’m a nobody, my voice holds no weight as of yet… Well what I consider weight anyway but that’s not gonna stop me from speaking my opinion… I won’t stop listening either, expanding the knowledge requi(red) and hoping I can reach others and unite together to make a serious change… The fact of the matter is we can say what we feel, but if we don’t do anything.. We might as well not say anything…

I can’t tell you what I feel is the right approach for creating the change we need in this country.. But what I can say, is all of us united, logically open-minded and educated on the topic at hand.. We can form solutions, we can plan the change, we can execute change as long as we’re united for the same cause.. Equality. Too many aren’t willing to step up to the plate to make shit happen, fear of what they might lose… I don’t know much but I do know, you sit this one out you won’t gain any more than what you have now, if what you have now isn’t taken away.. You just never know with this country.

Land of the free? Ha.

Shit is real.